Something I've struggled with a lot in my life is recognizing that I have value of any sort. My therapists have fought tooth and nail - just as hard as my friends and family - to get me to acknowledge my right to exist (which is a tall order for someone whose father blatantly resented … Continue reading No More Apologies
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It Takes Me a While, But I Get There in the End
I've said it before, and I'll say it to the bitter end: I can't stand myself sometimes. While lazing away my Friday night, listening to the music from the fair the next block over, I was just smacked straight in the face with the memory of something I wrote in college. I scrambled to uncover … Continue reading It Takes Me a While, But I Get There in the End
To Sigyn: We See Your Influence, We’ll Follow Your Example
Today started on the most horrific of notes when I found myself in conversation with someone who had the gall to defend slavery to my face. I was at work, so I couldn't act on the instinct to flay the bitch alive, both verbally and physically, but I did make it clear - in the … Continue reading To Sigyn: We See Your Influence, We’ll Follow Your Example
ECT 2019: The One That Made Me Ugly Cry
After last year's double whammy of intense proportions, I thought that this year's East Coast Thing would be chill and low key for me. I figured there was nothing that could possibly happen to top the whole "meeting the daughter of the man who saved my life almost 30 years ago in Germany" bombshell. But … Continue reading ECT 2019: The One That Made Me Ugly Cry
What Say You of Sigyn?
I've got 7 or 8 drafts that I've been hemming and hawing over for the last month or so, but this one gets going to jump the queue. East Coast Thing (aka heathen summer camp) is in two weeks, and I'm just now starting to put together the presentation on Sigyn for the "Lesser Known … Continue reading What Say You of Sigyn?
Like a Rhinestone Cowboy
Life as a conduit for Loki is pretty much what you'd expect. The energy is strong, but not overwhelming, and it's the little, random things that make you question reality. Not a lot of wild existential crises here, just little moments of "wut." After work, I was settling in for a nap, because napping is … Continue reading Like a Rhinestone Cowboy
You May Be Right… I May Be Crazy
So. This is going to be a very hard one to to publish and make public, but I'm feeling very much compelled to open up a bit about something that's hugely important to me, something that has become the core of my identity. This is 100% going to raise eyebrows, because it's an odd thing … Continue reading You May Be Right… I May Be Crazy
A Smile, A Troll Cross, and A LOT of Love
I'm creeping closer to the edge of the dark patch, finally tearing free from the brambles and thorns that held me tight and threatened to consume me. I credit the switch in medication, because I felt the smog lift when I started titrating down from the Lexapro. The new stuff is definitely helping with the … Continue reading A Smile, A Troll Cross, and A LOT of Love
Surprise! (Spoiler: No One Was Surprised)
After nearly ten years of celebrating holidays with my local kindred, I'm finally an official member of the family. We had our Midsummer celebration on Saturday, and I was welcomed in an unexpectedly emotional ceremony before the public arrived. I, of course, wasn't the only one welcomed by the kindred: the doors were opened for … Continue reading Surprise! (Spoiler: No One Was Surprised)
Loki: God of Chaos, Truth, and Greeting Cards
My family isn't really the Hallmark type. We'll get cards out of obligation, if we find really funny ones, but suffice it to say, I don't spend much time in the greeting card aisle when I hit the drug store. Loki, on the other hand, seems to like to communicate via card. It's interesting, to … Continue reading Loki: God of Chaos, Truth, and Greeting Cards
A Loki Kinda Life 